a few hours ago i wanted to blog but i fell aslp. at that moment, i thought that i should blog about a happy moment. like finally an up moment after 2 weeks of down. i was really comfortable and glad that i got my hugs as comfort. yes i cried but it was a mixed feeling. i cried cos finally i dont feel so left alone anymore. finally i didnt feel ignore. finally i felt that hey i m still the important one who u will feel heartpain seeing my tears. finally... i felt assured. the feeling that i longed for came back. at that very moment all the tears and heartache for the past 2 weeks dissolves.
sad to say, that moment of up was short lived. very soon after, i m kicked all the way down into the bottom again. my roller coaster ride was too crazy. i 'm again in a desperately situation where i frantically grab my stuff toys so that i could get some comfort as i sob hard. its so painful.
im supposed to be doing my tutorial now cos i just realised during dinner that tues is a ph and i have to hand it in tmr. but now.. im all soaked up in tears with tummy discomfort that i duno how am i gg to do my tutorial.
im at a loss.
why isit that words can be so hurtful. why isit that i just cant stop..
It's always ♀ ♡ ♂ Never ♂ ♡ ♀; if only...