i duno why, suddenly im feeling inferior..
suddenly i feel that i have so many flaws..
suddenly, the fears is coming up strong again..
suddenly, halfway through trying very hard to do some work, the tv is playing the last epi of the korean star thing. so its time to say goodbye for the time being for julie and the korean girl band. whether or not its just for the effect of the show, i got affected. they spent 6 days together. we spent 6 years together. though its not good bye for us.. thankfully.. i duno how much i can thank you for this.. but.. its falling down again. oh god. pain. pain. so pain.
how and when will u want a rs again? and when u want it again, will u choose me again? :'(
i honestly, honestly cannot accept any other outcome.. sorry honey.. i just cant see u with anyone else.. sorry...
this thought, my most fearful thought. the most hurtful thought. i dont think of it all the time.. but it comes to me from time to time.
snoopy calm me down now... my work is still waiting.. :(
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went on fb.. saw a baby.. a pri/sec friend's little boy.. so cute... u may not believe me.. but i actually wanna be a mummy earlier than what i thought.. earlier than what u thought too..
its just sth that i didnt tell u honey.. not saying this cos of the situation. its my heartfelt words.. the only thing i was waiting.. is to be financially stable, so that i can provide for a child..
but now.... :(
It's always ♀ ♡ ♂ Never ♂ ♡ ♀; if only...