i have to admit that there are still times today where i just felt really down.. as i walk along the corridors in school, there are still times where i was still really upset. i guess that feeling wont stop. at the very least i could do what i had to do in school. do my work, be it sch or other requirements. i did it. the only thing is.. sometimes i just stone. i just basically duno what to do. i just cant wait to get home. i just cant wait for the day to end so that i can hide under my blanket, with your jacket and snoopy.

then came just now.. cos i had no mood to do my work honestly.. so i thought i should just watch tv. so i watched. tonight scrum was airing. watched it. it wasnt even anything to do with rs. but it had some emotions nth to do with rs in it. and then i duno for what reason i felt so emotional again... i wanted to cry.. i fought my tears back while i was watchin in the living room. but my heart ached like crazy... :'(

i know that love is not all it is for a rs. it takes a willingness to commit, a willingness to compromise, a willingness to forgive and forget, a willingness to accept the good and bad.
i am really willing to do all these. its not on impulse. its painful now. but im glad that no matter what happens, you are still here. just as long as you are here, no matter how painful, i will get through. please always be here.

but i respect your needs now. or your wants now. just a little request. one day when u are once again ready. please think of me. i hope when that day comes, u will once again want me. i wont say to fall in love with me the second time. cos i believe, i really believe, you never fell out of love with me before.

during this period, i still look forward to having a good time with you my love. be it just a short meal, be it anything. in time to come, please let me see that smile again.

hugs.

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