ok its getting abit too much today.. but i duno where else to share my feelings alr..

i realised that sometimes i play haypi cos i just wanna play.. but sometimes i play haypi cos i running away from doing some form of work that i must do.. for instance, i play haypi alot more frequent during exam period.. cos i dont feel like studying sometimes.. so i will play play.. and then study.. i kinda get what u mean by u play and study at the same time.. thou we are still abit diff on that...
and now, im playing it again.. cos i dont wanna do work... i just basically wanna nua.. i wanna just watch show, n slp. but i cant afford to do this for long. i needa get work done.. yet i m not doin it.. stressed.

i tried to consume dinner today.. i thought i could eat alr.. i thought i felt a little hungry.. but i only ate a little.. then i thought i was thirsty.. took a packet of chrysanthemum and i actually couldnt finish it. a good start huh.. i feel like eating.. but just tt when i eat halfway, the appetite is just gone agn. sometimes i feel like snacking.. but then hmm..

sometimes i feel like just getting drunk.. ok not very healthy thinking.. but can numb feelings for awhile right? having said that, i guess im still sane enough, not to go some beach just to drink n get drunk outside.
but if u could, after exams, maybe we could just get a drink, together.. get abit tipsy tog.. just a thought.. but i probably wouldnt dare to ask for this now.. asking for a meal/movie/walk.. i m already being v greedy..

everything that u r doing now.. i appreciate them all.. never taking anything for granted. i treasure them all. every little thing..

time to get some work done.. but its rather vexing... that im stuck.. i wanna grumble to someone.. ofcos usually that someone is u.. can i still do that? u said i could tell u everything. i believe that u meant what u said.
jiayou joey... jiayou.. u can do this. u can do it.. remember, remember that your honey is still here.. dont disappoint yourself.. dont disappoint him.. let him be proud of u.. at least, at the very least, for your practicum.

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