20th is coming to an end in afew more minutes..

perhaps its just another day to u.. but its more than just another day to me..

20th is suppose to be a happy day.. today i was happy when i was drawing the jiayou pic for u.. i was happy when i was gg to meet u with the welfare pack in my arms.. i m just happy to be able to show my care and love for you. and putting them into concrete actions in such ways.
i m also happy to be able to see you.. im happy to be able to hug u.. all these made up my happy moments this 20th..

but this 20th is also very painful.. i cried, till headache.. this is no longer unusual. up till today, im still in constant hurt. and the thing is, only u can make me happy.. by the small little things.. a meal with me, a hug, or simply accepting my care for u. im perpetually upset. if not im just numb or just not feeling anything.. but the only person that can make me feel abit of happiness is you.
sad to say, the reverse is not true, for now.. right? but i still hope that everything that im doing now, which is what i would be doing in any case cos the way i treat u is just like how i would have treated u, simply cos i still treat u as my best bf. and i just hope that u will be abit touched, u will still appreciate me.. u hopefully still feel a little happy to see that this girl here still loves u and care alot for u..
我真的希望，你会觉得，被我爱，是一种幸福。
你知道吗，可以被你爱着，是多么幸福的一件是。and im so glad, im the lucky one.. even up till now.. just that i duno if ur love for me is gonna have an expiry date. please dont.. please please dont let it fade away.. but at least up till this very moment, im still the lucky one.. and im so so thankful for it..
just this year, when we went back to tj, and i posted up that im lucky to meet u my love, i really mean it.. please continue to let me be the lucky girl. if i have to use all my luck up to maintain this luck in being love by u, i will be willing to. cos with ur love for me, with you staying right beside me, i will have all the strength in the world to overcome any other obstacles in other areas.

next 20th, is our anniv. its 20th may. honey, we once miss a vday tog.. we spent the day tog, i rmbed u gave me flowers, we hugged, we smiled, we exchanged gifts, we went for a meal tog, i went to your place and u even used light sticks to put i love u. this anniv, i know its gonna be different. but can we please have a good time tog? can it still be a day filled with love? most importantly, can we just miss our anniv for once this year, and next year we will be able to celebrate our 7th anniv together in happiness?? honey, u once said anniv means more to u than vday. cos anniv is special to us.. just us.. honey, im sure 20th may is still as special to u as it is to me. honey, on 20th may, or rather by 20th may, would u slowly talk more to me, smile to me.? slowly get back to normal... slowly start wanting to hug me?

can we make each other smile on 20th may? every year..

我好想念我的他，一个我可以随时随地拥抱的他。
他，让我欲罢不能。好爱他。
对于他，我真的会不离不弃。
对于我，我的心爱的他，你是否也一样呢？

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