it's monday.. a new week again.. woke up not feeling the best with dizziness and a queasy tummy.. not too sure what went wrong as well.. ended up having diarrhoea twice in sch today.. thankfully it got better.. the usual me will probably dont feel like wasting time travelling to and fro.. but today i just wanted to get out of sch and be back home so i rather travel near 2 hrs to and fro for a 20 mins piano lessons. hmm.. got some rest on the bus.. and yea just getting out and home feels better somehow..

hmm.. coincidentally, after quite some time, a study which i did while i was still schooling in ntu had a 2nd part to it and it just came today. not sure if i will be able to go back to sch for the third part in the future but well just do the second part since its online. and so happen that this survey is looking at your mood in the recent 2 wks.. and apparently, my mood is really very bad based on the answers i have chosen for almost all those questions.. almost all had negative answers... sighs.. this mood will continue till i duno when.. hope it wont be too long..

hmm having transport and not resting is bad.. cos thats when the brain wanders off and think of many many things. many illusions come.. hopes, wishes, things that makes me happy but duno if it will come true thoughts will flood. i indulged in them today. self-comfort? i duno. rest of the time, haypi or slp is the best.

this wk is a crucial wk with the vp obs. and this wkend i will still have another lesson obs to plan for next wk.. so i guess i will be kept occupied somehow.. following this, when all my obs are done.. normal lesson planning seems to be not tt bad.. i hope i will be alright then..

honestly, i dont think i will fail this practicum.. when i get the confirmation that i have passed, will u be happy for me? will u be somehow proud of me? hmm...

i think of u many times in a day.. basically whenever im not doing sth, then i will be thinking of u..

hopefully after ur exams, we can spend some happy times together, and u will start missing me, or holding me. many hopes, waiting to be fulfilled.

its late, time for bed. daily routine of hugging snoopy.. shall indulge in jacket when i have more time in the night.

as i hug, i miss.
i think of u, as i fall aslp.

little energy, can keep me going.. so i will collate them.. and think of these energy giving moments whenever i feel like i cant carry on..

thankyou love.

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