no idea why im spamming so much today.. but yea..
yes i went out to play in the end.. i think u want me to do that too.. during the play time i did put things aside for the moment i gotta agree with it..
but i still do check my phone once/twice to see if u replied.. hmm..
but then again.. when it all ended.. and when it so happens that im the only one staying in sengkang, so i ended up walking back to the mrt stn alone.. and then.. there is this indescribable feeling of emptiness..and it gets even stronger due to the contrast.. so i duno if this is one reason why i choose to isolate a little now..
and all thoughts just flow into my head again.. as i walk along the streets alot of our memories came back.. from ntuc income days, i got reminded that u will wait for me after work, sometimes even buy me a delifrance fruit tart. then there was vday last year at taos which was opp.. then the recent one that i met u after u had biz mag meeting in dec? and u held my hand asking if we wanna go timbre? or go where to makan.. n we just ended up strolling to orchard.. sitting on a random seat and ion with a cup of drink talking. and then there is bus 518.. where u would accompany me to take bus just cos i like to sit on a direct bus home.
oh god, there is just so many memories of us everywhere i go. i cant stop thinking of u..
on the train back, saw a post on fb on the video, u thought u were meeting up with your friend but it ended up to be the funeral.. the one that wanna ask people not to speed on the roads.. suddenly, i just thought, it i were to die tmr, what would u say to me now? will u regret leaving me like this?
just a random thought.. see small things on fb and i can think of such things sighs..
mp3 played this just before i got home...
我放不过我自己
转一圈回到了原地
眼泪是一种提醒
我还爱你
让一切归零Bu
我放不过我自己
仍相信爱会有奇迹
人群中我找到你
我抱着你
我们的爱情
还未完待续
kinda says what i feel in a way too..
the verse has this one phrase..
我哪里都不想再去
到哪里都触景伤情
In a way, really will.. especially when im alone..
But oh well, im just happy that i received your reply shortly after i got home.. after all that emo-ness, emptiness feeling in my journey back, i got comfort again..
I have to admit this, indeed im used to not be alone anymore.. i cant let it go.. i cant cos i no longer know how to.
It's always ♀ ♡ ♂ Never ♂ ♡ ♀; if only...
