saturday and its a back to sch day... just being in sch was half the day.. well even if im home i will prob slp it away.. so yea.. then it was killing time at tamp where i walked abit.. had lunch.. went to singtel to change my address.. hmm.. honestly i dont mind walking alone, like running errands or shopping for things i need.. but i really do prefer to eat with someone, and would like to have u by my side as i shop for fashion stuff cos i like to hear a second opinion..

collected the tix from june.. and had a small chat before she headed for work.. she asked if im alone and where are is my bf.. just said that ure busy.. hmm yes u r still my bf in my opinion honey.. i duno how but u really are..

went ahead to shop at bedok for my students.. and time just flew by cos by the time i was back home it's already evening..  hmm thou im like so close to u, really wanted to see u, but i think i will keep it for tmr.. and today i shall just do whatever i need to.. but honestly, as i was buying all the stuff today.. i got reminded at how u helped me last year towards the end of my pract.. i rmbed u accompanying me to diaso, to shengsiong to buy all the goodies.. i rmbed u helping me to pack goodie bags.. i rmbed that i was so tired that i fell aslp on my sofa, and u sweetly did and pack everything for me.. allowing me to take a rest, even if it meant u missed ur last bus back home..do u know i was really touched by that? im sure i said thankyou to u and gave u some lovey emoticon. and i really meant it.. many atimes, u touched me in ur own sweet way. and i appreciate everything that u did for me. so i cant help but recall that day.. thou im not expecting u to do this now since ure having exams real soon, im just hoping that the same sweetness will fall upon me.. that i will be once again touched by these small little actions of yours... actually today i also recalled that during my last practicum, there was one wkend where u just brought me out to sweechoon for dinner knowing that i was tired working.. and u have no idea how happy i felt then. honestly, 可以被你呵护着，是最幸福的事。really really hope that will happen again.

and u know what honey, i was half expecting that maybe u wont wanna have dinner with me tmr.. cos hmm yea i said i will just drop by awhile last wk.. but i was just trying my luck.. and im really happy that u actually said u can have dinner with me tmr.. thou its gonna be just a short while i presume.. but thats good enough!

i know u know that i picked tmr instead of today to drop by cos its 20th. whether or not it still holds any significance to u, it does to me and it always will. i believe u wont ever forget 20th either. esp 20/05. as u take time off, do take it with me still in your mind n heart k. so that u will still find your way back to me.

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Saw this on fb...

You can’t just give up on someone because the situation’s not ideal. Great relationships aren’t great because they have no problems. They’re great because both people care enough about the other person to find a way to make it work.

Make it work.. yes make our r/s work.. yes im not gonna give up on u.. so please dont give up on me either. we have problems, but we will make it work because we care a great deal for each other. 
u might be lost now, u might wanna run away now, ur rational mind might just now wanna deal with all these now. but, if u listen to your heart, u might find your way back to me, u might rediscover our possibilities, u might see that as long as we both put in effort and choose to hold on tight to each other, we will make it work. honey, i truly believe in this. i believe that if both parties hold onto the same believe, they will overcome their problems. if u are comparing to other r/s, it is becos one or both parties just chose to give up and stop believing n choose the easier way out by ending it. yes they may end up with someone else whom they eventually can be happy with, but it means to say this is a person that they chose to keep that believe and thats why it worked. 
so honey, if u love me enough, care for me enough, please choose to believe in us, please choose to hold on to this r/s that we have put in great effort, please continue to love and care for me, please see our future together. 

i really do.. went into a kids shop at parkway today.. and i saw those cute little small kids outfits. i want to be able to go shopping with u for such cute little clothes for our child honey. i can totally see and feel it as such a blissful thing to be able to do that.. 

我无法对你死心，因为我还是深爱着你。而且，我想就这样一直继续下去。
也请你千万不要让我死心，因为那意味着，我的心将彻底死掉。
我不想成为一个没有心的人。一旦心死了，很多事，就没有意义了。

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