today is a bad day... had this bad feeling for my obs.. and indeed what i was worried n my uneasiness before it came true.. some of them were just inattentive and restless.. :( felt really bad cos i was disappointed in myself.. really think that i can do better than this. sighs.
and in a time like this.. it seems like i need or rather i want even more comfort from you.. i, as usual, texted u what i felt. n i was actually waiting for a comfort.. i.. cant ask for too much.. but i m really waiting.. and how it feels like to be waiting for my phone to light up with your name appearing there. that, feeling inside.. :( in times like this, how i wish u can be like how u were in the past, and make me smile in your own unique way.. but i know i wont be able to get that. u wont say sth like saiyang me.. i cant tell u when u meet me tmr can u saiyang me? omg.. honey, will u please saiyang me a little..? :'(
totally not in the mood for anything today again.. :(
doesn't help that the show on channel u just now was so sad as well, i get really affected by such emo-ness in the show.. it makes me feel sad as well.. honey, i dont want sth like in the drama.. i just want a peaceful life.. i just want to lead a simple happy life with u..
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i came across this article on fb..
[The Man I Actually Want To Be With]
I want a man who doesn’t play hard to get. A man who responds to my text message shortly after he reads it, rather than intentionally ignoring it and responding two hours later.
I want a man who is a go-getter and strives to achieve success in his career. I want a man who doesn’t assume I’m only supportive of his goals so I can enjoy his salary.
I want a man who will hold me when I cry and comfort me until I settle down. I want a man who will bring me back to reality, remind me how good I have it, and reassure me everything will be okay.
I want a man who is not fazed after I finish what seems to be a never-ending Chipotle burrito bowl and doesn’t expect me to go to the gym after.
I want a man to tell me I look beautiful because, after all, I dressed up for him.
I want a man who can’t keep his hands off of me and looks forward to our time spent in bed together.
I want a man who values family. I want a man who can create a healthy balance of both his family and his career.
I want a man who I can trust. So much, that even bachelor parties in Vegas don’t intimidate me.
I want a man who isn’t afraid to admit he wants to get married someday. Not tomorrow, but someday.
I want a man who can teach me new things. I want him to have in-depth conversations with me that stimulate my mind and broaden my sense of culture.
I want a man who will watch me fall flat on my face in a crowded room, yet continue to reassure me no one saw until I actually start to believe it. I want a man that will laugh with me and know I’m not perfect.
I want a man who encourages me to build my career. A man who does not expect me to be less ambitious because I’m going to be a mom someday.I want a man who realizes he cannot be perfect, either. I want a man whose ego doesn’t get in the way.
I want a man who doesn’t have to tell me he loves me, but shows me. I want a man who shows me by giving me Advil to help my headache, handing me an umbrella because he knows it will rain this afternoon, or by making sure I made it home safely. I want a man who knows actions speak louder than words.
You are everything mentioned above.. you are truly the man i wanna be with.. honey, i found you.. and i was so appreciative, so glad and so thankful.. I was never doubtful that i am so lucky to be able to have found you.. I cant lose you like that.
Then i saw the link to the flip side
[The Woman I Actually Want To Be With]
I want a woman who doesn’t play games. I want a woman who isn’t put off by kindness, honesty, openness, and being direct. She shouldn’t be afraid of me showing her that I care.
I want a woman who knows how to be selfless but also values her self. I want a woman who doesn’t pretend she is busier than she is.
I want a woman who is willing to be honest with me even if it means hurting me. I want a woman who can bust my chops and be funny without being downright mean. I want a woman who is excited to be with me, who is excited by the very idea of me.
I want a woman who tries to give as good as she gets in the bedroom. She doesn’t have to be incredible. The effort is what matters.
I want a woman with an attractive face. Face is paramount. You look into it when you tell her you love her and you should at least attempt to look at it most of the time when she’s speaking. The other physical features are secondary—bonuses, but not essential.
I want a woman who lets me take the lead sometimes but also isn’t afraid to make the first move. I want a woman who doesn’t think I’m less manly if I cry about something worth shedding tears for.
I want a woman who wants to get married someday. I want a woman who doesn’t just admit it, but is honest about it. Admitting it makes it seem shameful. Want what you want.
I would prefer a woman who knows how to cook so she can teach me how to do it better. I really suck at cooking. It would be nice if she could cook for me, but I wouldn’t expect it.
I want a woman who would be careful and respectful with my money if I were providing for her. I want a woman who would respect my parents, friends, and family even if she didn’t like them.
I want a woman who would visit my grave if I died. I want a woman who might move on eventually if I died young.
I want a woman who would try to make time for me even if her career was demanding. I want a woman who loves what she does.
I want a woman who will love me and treat me well.
I want a woman I can fall in love with.
Am I the woman you wanna be with eventually? Do I still fit in? Tell me I do.. After some time off, please come back and tell me I am still the woman you want to be with.
I miss you so much.. every day, i long for you so much. today is really bad.. so bad that i need that jacket once agn.. :'(
It's always ♀ ♡ ♂ Never ♂ ♡ ♀; if only...
