today is thursday.. used to be able to see u cos of session but not today:/ hmm but tmr is holiday so i can slp in.. ok no link.

but guess what? other than i cant wake up, other than my phone charger cable spoil.. today is a slightly better day even though i didnt get to see u.. not only have i finished all my obs.. and i know i have passed my obs.. thou i wont do very well.. but at least i passed overall..

ok but thats not the reason why today is a slightly better day..

today is slightly better because u told me u will share ur schedule with me..
today is better because after being so busy and i just dont even have time to check my phone to see if u have texted and reply u, when i finally ended n replied.. u actually replied me quite quickly! and honestly i was pleasantly surprised by that! it may seems like nth much.. but it means alot to me.. i know that u still delayed the replies later on but then i also know ure prob watching tv and all.. thou u didnt tell me u cancelled ur ippt but then u still told me when i asked n said will arrange after exams.. all these small little things.. no matter how insignificant it may seems.. it actually does make a difference to me..

as u can see.. the slightest thing that u do/say can give me comfort and prevent too much negative feelings/tears, or can even make me happy...
but similarly, the slightest thing u do/say can make my eyes well up with tears immediately.
ur words and actions have different effect on my emotions.. in fact the impact is far more than u or even myself can imagine.

i duno how long this can last thou. think emotionally may be abit better also cos i have a show to watch.. i have haypi to play.. now also playing some spot the difference game.. to keep me occupied i guess..

but watching drama does bring up emotions.. whenever sth sad happens, then i will be extremely affected too. i know the feeling of fear, lost, will somehow pop up till i get a affirmation from u.. but at least, lets maintain this kind of r/s now.. a r/s whereby... i still feel that im attached to u, in some way.. when colleague see my wallpaper and ask bf ah? at least i can smile back and say yes. at least i can do alot more things than what a friend can do. at least, im still a special someone.. at least i still have the chance to be back to being that someone who will be always right beside u..
u ever mention, when ure not around, let those toys u gave me accompany me on ur behalf first. now, thats what im doing.. snoopy accompanies me for the time being.. but snoopy cant replace u ok. cos snoopy cant hug me back.. snoopy cant stroke my head... snoopy cant give me a loving kiss. only u can do all these.. loving u dearly honey. really waiting for u to be back..

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