50 things you need to do to make a relationship last.

We have been doing many well, of cos there are some we may not be that good in and needs improvement, but i truly think we both what to make ours last.

There is just this one point i wish you would see..

Adapting beats abandoning.

There will be moments when you want to quit, walk out, give up. You can do that. But you will probably be doing so without giving due consideration to the new life that awaits you. Will you be better off in six months? 10 years? 


Honey, i dont know if u are thinking for me, wanting the best for me, thinking that u cant provide me with true happiness, thats why u made this decision... or are u just thinking that u arent happy, there u just dont want me for ur own sake..

if it is the former, then adapting beats abandoning.. no way will i be better without you..
if it is the latter, i hope your love for me, and my love for you, will give u the confidence to overcome all these insecurities.

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you know, i m abit scared.. is your texts getting colder? is our situation getting worse?
you didnt reply me at times right..? u chose not to right? these thoughts come to my mind..

honey, i m really trying very very hard to be positive. no matter what u throw me into i try to look at it positively. maybe im deceiving myself. but no matter how tough i know i needa hang on now. can u see my effort? can u see my heart? can u see that im holding on not cos im childish, but cos im so dead serious about you... my effort in trying to make the atmosphere lighter, doesnt seems to work:(

please try your best to treat me like someone you love. not someone u wish to abandon please.
this girl you love here, is really trying very hard..

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as practicum is coming to an end..
i duno why.. i fear.
i fear, you will gradually disappear.

some time later, i hope u will hold my hand and tell me, you will always be here for me.
and you will be here forever.

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