maybe cos its just talks.. anyway the mood around jy and all is quite down so ya i just feel like tt lo..
but when i went for afth.. i knew i was a goner when it comes to socialising already..
i could do work.. i really could think and do work just as i did before..
but really talking nonsense? having fun? no..
i basically kept quiet the whole time unless ppl as me questions.
when they laugh i just feel out of place and i just wanna be alone.
people tell me i look tired. and i brush it off saying ya work.
i basically dont even wanna interact with them anymore..
wkend getway? sorry not interested also.
my life.. it has too much of an impact on it.
all the messages we have exchange helps me to understand better. but also put me at lotsa pain too.. thou i have been controlling and managing it at a calmer level.
how can i soften u up? how can i make u responsible to me? but this is not really sth that i want also. rather, a chance for me to show u that im worth it.
even if not now, but as time goes by and slowly u will grant me my wish.
It's always ♀ ♡ ♂ Never ♂ ♡ ♀; if only...