was all too tired after sunday.. and ytd was a long day... somehow, this wk just seem to pass really really slowly.. like it seems to be so long but its only tues night now...

last wkend was or yea considered a better wkend for me i guess? got to see u, dint feel so emo that i keep crying.. i didnt! but then sat apparently i also duno why.. i nv think nv anything.. i just look tired lo.. and apparently alot of ppl think that there is sth wrong with me.. or is surprised to see that i m so tired.. hmm.. its really true that i am tired.. i duno if im so tired cos its simply physical.. actually i think the mental definitely came into place..  oh well..

sunday, sth happy is i get to see u smile.. even thou not to me.. not cos of me.. i get to hug u... seriously my strength to cope with sch this wk.. but seriously this wk is so slow im starting to dread the week.. no idea why this wk is so slow.. but luckily im not the only one who feels this way.. jy and other teachers too..

less than half the week.. but i guess this is the way to go? next wk it is holidays.. im will be too free.. which isnt really the best thing.. haiz.. time to read up, prepare for next time.. i know i cant hope to spend much time with u.. but i hope there will be still time spent together.. even if its in silence.. i hope now u still can get comfortable silence when ure with me..

hmm.. watched the channel8 9pm show.. that show ah.. is really quite saddening.. all the heartbreaks.. and how girl thinks, n guy thinks.. sigh really sigh..

u may say that i am weak, but yes.. i think i only have the courage to love once. and cos i have fallen for u, i will always love u. i think this is one thing that will nv change, no matter how everything else changes. even if one day u tell me u dont love me anymore, i wont stop loving u.. but now, be glad, be really glad, cos ur love for me is not any less than mine is for u.

writing this, is really my way of comforting myself. my way of reminding myself that its really not that bad now.. you are still allowing so many things.. it means u have not given up entirely.. yes there is still hope somehow.. you said that i should be able to see all your effort.. yes i really do.. jiayou to us.. jiayou.. or jiayou to myself. jiayou to u, if u would appreciate it.

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