went for dinner and drinks with jy and wn...

talk talk talkon sch, work and life..

wn mentioned that she is really starting to be worried that she will remain single.. but she really really wants to get married. jy also say seems really hard but she doesnt wanna get married as much as wn..

honestly, im just like wn.. i really really wanna get married. i really really wanna have a family of my own.. but the thing is, there is only one person in this world whom i wanna get married to. this will not change. u may say that im stubborn. and u also know that i really am. so u shld really know that i really mean what i say. i really will never be able to get married unless you are the one i am marrying.
and the only way for this to be possible, is for u to not be scared of me anymore.. for u to want me more than anything else. for u to see that this girl here is just gonna wait forever.

the past few days during my course, they showed a few touching videos. and i was upset and i felt like tearing in class.. a few classmates teared.. but i held it in.. even thou it has nth to do with bgr.. i was upset and i thought of u.. but i held it in.. i have come to realised that i am always strong in front of friends, family.. which resulted me to be really weak when im with myself and when im with you.. im trying really really hard to be stronger in front of u too. a vid said: "let people live in your heart forever". u will always live in my heart. even if i have to depend on the 6 years memories to carry on with my life. but im thankful that we are still creating memories together now.

one of the sharing mentioned that the starting of teaching is definitely gonna be real tough.. but u really need a strong support.. so needa find the support that keeps u going.. and when they said that, i thought of u.. i really do need your support... and im praying hard that u will still continue to be my support system. if im really stressed about sch, if im getting burned out.. i really hope that u will just give me a hug and tell me its ok and that u will always be here for me.. ur hug is magically powerful to me. ur smile lights up my day. if u nv knew this, this is one reason for me to love u so much. i kinda hope that my smile actually makes u smile too.


reminder to self: count my blessings. be happy that u are still here. im really happy when u told me about ur lunch appt tmr. simple things like this im happy.. im even happier when u actually offer to pei me to ikea next sat evening.. although i duno if its gonna happen next sat but im really really happy u offered. honey, actually i can be not that scary and demanding too. and if u will, slowly realise that the true me can also be a me u love.

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