had a really bad dream again this morning...
cos in my dream im losing people dear to me.. like family too..
i know a dream is only a dream. but dreams do affect me too..
i get scared sometimes. i.. want to have u.. to know that i have u to run to for a hug whenever i need.
i always had that.. now.. i dont really have that.. thou i sorta still have that.. upset but glad that i still sorta have that...
even though there's no doubt u feel guilt towards me and so u do some things u do now.. im sure thats only part of it.. im sure part of why u do what u do is also cos of ur feelings for me.
whenever i think of it this way, whenever i think of the things u still allow me to do, it is my greatest comfort now.
i can only see u this sun i suppose, at my event.. for i duno how long..
i miss u..
honestly, i miss u even more now in such situation.
i know if not, i will be ok.. cos i will just make it up by having a nice day out with u the following wk.. but now.. theres no such thing as make it up le ba. maybe because of this, i actually miss u so much each day. but i cant openly show it.
how i wish, i could also feel that u miss me too. how i wish...
It's always ♀ ♡ ♂ Never ♂ ♡ ♀; if only...