i admit i was a little disappointed when u reject my spooktacular request... well, as i said, i kinda expected that... and i can understand more..
but today i was actually more disappointed when u rejected my sea aquarium request.. it will be a normal outing out with u.. but u rejected.. i wanted to go to these places and u are the one that i really wanna go with.. and i have always wanted to go with u.. we said we will go there tog one day after coming back from hk.. it hurts.. it really did.. but learning how to listen to u.. i said ok.. i didnt want to force u somewhere u didnt wanna go. but i just hope that one day u will ask me out and bring me there.. and i also hope that u wont reject all my requests of going to different places in the future.. as much as im trying my best to make things easier for u.. i know i will go through all these emotions time and again... but i really hope it will make things better for u, which will in turn make things better for us in the future.. i hope one day, u wont feel pressured to be out with me....
today u seem to disappear... it made my heart sink.. in afew minutes its gonna be the 20th again.. its gonna be the 6th month that im wishing myself this.. im writing to u knowing that i wont get anything back.. i miss reading your letters.. looking at your handwriting..
"Good things come to those who believe, better things come to those who are patient, and the best thing come to those who don't give up."
This is what we tell our kids in school.. and this is what i have been telling myself.. i duno what my fate lies in the future, but i cannot give up now...
It's always ♀ ♡ ♂ Never ♂ ♡ ♀; if only...
