` Lynn ♥

` Wednesday, November 19, 2014 ♥

Posted @ // 4:39 AM

a few nights ago, i had a sweet dream.. i dreamt that somehow we were back happy tog. it was full of touched and happiness. i guess that dream seem so real that i when i woke up, i could feel the happiness inside of me. but it's only a dream..

my bro saga brought me back into this whole feeling again.. as i was speaking to the girl, somehow it feels like im re-experiencing alot of things. it makes me really really upset inside..

and just now before i slpt.. my mum suddenly came in and ask me out of the blue.. is there anything that happened btw us? she feels that i dont seem to be hanging out with u much these days. and I lied. i lied. i lied. i said nothing. it really hurts so much inside. i didnt cry. somehow it hurt so much inside but tears did not form. but i was feeling so terrible. maybe is good that the channel 8 show tonight was quite sad and it allowed me to let some tears out. i obviously still cannot face it.. i lied. it is so difficult. and it really hurt me much when my mum said, 我不要你像我一样，最后一个人。

我好害怕，最后会变一个人。封闭的心，无法让其他人进来，也只有你能。

将来，我们还有机会吗？

你对我，有可能，一直至少像这样，陪伴吗？

谢谢你，没有无情的离开，无情的让我一个人。

谢谢你，让我知道，你还是关心我的。

"Why did you tear my heart apart

You said you love me from the start
All those painful things you've put me through But i'm still loving you"

我想，我这一辈子，都没有办法，不爱你了。在我的心里，你始终，无法取代。

It's always ♀ ♡ ♂ Never ♂ ♡ ♀; if only...

` Friday, November 14, 2014 ♥

Posted @ // 2:53 AM

not sure why but tonight isnt a good night.. isit cause i slpt earlier on?

dreamt.. about u... slipping into mild slp paralysis a couple of times im unsure if its a dream or what.

last wk at the check up, appreciate it much u were there. went in and due to the nature of the checkup, i had to answer some sensitive questions and it kinda just makes me feel a little down. i guess its really just stuck with me.. no matter how u try to bury it, its just there.

and i realised, very minute things remind me of u.. went to supermarket and saw hershey xmas edition of mint chocs. and i got reminded that one year we went into the choc shop and i said i wanted that or that looked nice.. and u bought it on the spot for me. those were the times, i miss them so much. the memories shared is really alot.. i think my daily life will be filled with it whether i want or not. im thankful for these memories. at least they belong solely to us and nth will change them anymore. hopefully, there will be such chances one day. hopefully there will be a day i dont have to stutter to answer a question.

im hoping that im not abnormal. even though it is not like it is very crucial now given the current situation. but i do hope its not that bad even is sth is wrong. i still envision to have my own family. if i cant even do that, i wonder if it is really fated that we come to this. too early to dwell into this before all the tests are done.

bed time. i dont wanna dream or have slp paralysis anymore.

It's always ♀ ♡ ♂ Never ♂ ♡ ♀; if only...

` Tuesday, November 4, 2014 ♥

Posted @ // 2:52 AM

"就算你背着最喜欢的背包，走久了，背包还是一样的重。当你没力气了，就会觉得累。可是，你只是觉得累，不是讨厌了背包。休息一阵子，你又有力气了，就会继续背着背包走下去。
追求本来就是一种很累的过程，但是，如果你半途放弃，那之前的努力就会白费了。"

This words pierced through my heart. As I watched the show on xinmsn and heard this part, it stirred up my emotions, and it led to tears welling up in my eyes unknowingly.

我想，我就像那个背包，你真的很累了。但，我坚信，你并不讨厌我。可是，你却选择了放弃。休息够了，你会再次背起这背包吗？
不管多累，我都不会放弃。我会尽一切努力，守护这份爱情。

It's always ♀ ♡ ♂ Never ♂ ♡ ♀; if only...

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