going overseas in afew hours... i duno why but been having a weird feeling.. going overseas without u.. why do i feel less excited.. maybe it will only come when i reacht the airport? or maybe its gg overseas without having u saying u will be waiting here for me? mixed feelings...
is this why im been having nightmares of all sorts these few nights?
people gg overseas n posting pics.. some to hk.. places we been tog less than a year ago.. and it brought back so much memories.. bittersweet memories shld be the right term to use? its warm, happy, yet abit of pain? i duno...
duno why, but seems like many ppl around are getting engaged.. something which i thought isnt unachievable for me.. i also used to fantasize that one day i would be that happy girl having someone to put that ring on for me... but now, it all seems so far...
a day which i was afraid of was my birthday... but i was unexpectedly calm when it was nearing.. although my head knows i cant be expecting anything, i also know that my uncontrollable heart is foolishly still hoping... im relieve when u texted saying not to wait for u... and m extremely comforted when u say u might drop by the next day... kinda put me at ease.. and was just looking forward to seeing u briefly... maybe u duno, but when i saw u presenting the cake to me... im genuinely happy.. this is the 7th year that u gave me a cake on my bday... i guess my bday will nv be complete without this. and i will always rmb this. its means so much to me. in fact, your simple happy birthday when the clock strikes 12 also means alot. at least to me, i know, u rmb it. and sincerely wished me. thank you my love..
It's always ♀ ♡ ♂ Never ♂ ♡ ♀; if only...
