It took me a couple of days to settle down and calm my emotional self. Perhaps from time to time there will be just occasions where I think too much and get emotional and break down. Honestly, I feel v alone.. And all I want is just to be able to be in your arm for awhile. I just want that warm hug. Just to calm down a little. And feel that little comfort.

Perhaps the having more workload now and being busy at work helps a little cos u think the only time I'm not thinking about anything is when I'm teaching in class. And full focus on work. But when work stresses me, I will think of u..

Tonight, one wk after the day I cried my eyes n lungs out. And I'm thankful that u didn't leave me cos of that episode. U didn't ignore me n still texts me. But tonight, I'm here because of my mum. What I saw tonight was my mum, pouring a glass of red wine, standing by the window staring out into space. N I got this strong feeling.. Will that be me in the future?? Is my mum gonna be the reflection of my life? Maybe, maybe my fate is quite weak. When I was a kid my ahma use to tell me, look at the lines on the palm and what they mean. Then she say that if 2 lines didn't cross, it means will be left alone, and showed me hers that didn't cross well n so she isn't with ahgong. When I was a kid, I looked at my own and was wondering if mine crossed cos it looks like it does at the end but it looks like it doesn't really too.. Well, I don't know what the future may bring. Even thou I'm really afraid that I will end up being alone, perhaps if that's my destiny, I can only hope that my next life would be better. I hope, that u can still be beside me to accompany me through my life. Even if I may not be the most important person. But when u do rmb me and wonder how I am, u would show me some concern.. I miss u so much.

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