今天的我，有一种莫名的难过...

Actually last wkend after Bobby texted me some stuff, 我的心情，真的没有很好...but then I had to put that aside and kept going... He don't mean to hurt. He was just being truthful. Even thou I know all the things he say, it still hurts me somehow. Yes I know u probably hardly have me on your mind now. Seriously I really don't think I'm that important to U. And I think u can lead a good life without me. I know u will be there for me if I need u. I know. But I know its differnt from the past. I don't even know if u still love me at all even though I know u care. But in any case, Ya upset I may be, day still go on.. And I just ended up watching a dvd which I know can make me cry. And had a good time letting it out that night.

不去想，真的好像没事了.
但是一想到，还是一样难过. 一年的时间，根本没有冲淡任何伤痛.

你，还会因为我，而痛吗？

What must I do to make U willing to open up again? Why isit that even if im willing to start over as friends U aren't willing to open up to me. Even if it's just the level of a friend.

Bobby said, second chance is a privilege and not a given. U don't need to give this chance at all. And I have no say in it.
I know. I'm nothing.
你知道吗，其实我并不笨，我都懂，但是我还是傻傻的爱着你，傻傻的让自己受伤.
你有选择幸福的权利，我却没有办法走出伤痛. 有些伤，一辈子也没法复原.

To many, 1 year is not a short time. In fact it is quite some time.
But to me, I'm willing to wait longer.
But to me, I'm not recovered.
I duno if it's a girl thing or not, but to Wee Teng, she can understand why isit that even after one year im still the same me. She told me she has a friend that still cries whenever she talk about her ex and that has alr been a few years.
有些人，可以慢慢走出伤痛.. 甚至很快复原... 可是也有一些人，走了很久，还是在原点..
或许，你会说，这是我自己选的，怨不了任何人.. 其实，我也不知道... 或许，你说对了，是我选择让自己悲伤... 可是，或许这是因为，我宁可选择悲伤，也要继续爱着你.

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